I resent the thought of needing someone but I feel like I needed you at that particular time in my life. Not for the relationship itself but for the sake of opening my eyes to something I did not want to become by seeing it in someone else. When we met, you were in a similar life situation to me and by observing you, I learned a lot about myself. I learned that whilst it’s okay to hold onto a little anger and sadness in order for it to fuel things like creativity and motivation. But only when there…

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I’m not sure how to start this anymore because it was just going to be one long post but I figured I should probably break it into three parts and address the subjects separately. If you’re a long time follower, you’ll know that I used to do a lot of sponsored posts or guest posts and when I shifted to self hosted, I had a massive meltdown because I realised that i’d sold out so, I got rid of more than half of my posts and now, my blog is more a form of catharsis. So whilst you read these…

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  Like the previous three years, I’m doing the annual bucket list post and taking  a moment to reflect on what I’ve achieved in a year and what I plan on doing to improve. I started the year very strong and determined but soon I was swayed, I had distractions and I let them take over my life and I’m fully aware that I did not do as much as I could have, I really want to do more this year, I want to stay on track and fingers crossed I will but I know how many times I’ve posted…

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  I have already written this post once but it didn’t feel right so I scrapped it. It had the title “Be Good on Your Own Before You’re Good With Someone Else” but that didn’t feel right either. Mainly because “good” is pretty synonymous with “alright” and that just won’t do. I’m not annoyed that I have to rethink it and I don’t feel like I’ve wasted my time because I’ve learnt and I love to learn. Learning from your mistakes is an important part of your growth and learning to love yourself is a part of that. Whenever I…

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  Direct carry on from Pretentious Ramblings #11 * Yes, just to feel that buzz. Yes, just to feel that kick. Yes, just to feel. Why do you do it? Smelling those paths on the back of a CD case. Pumping your veins with that dirt brown liquid. Breathing in those thick herbs and being adamant that it’s only illegal because it can’t be taxed. That’s okay. But what it one day, it’s not? You’ve being doing it for so long now that it’s no longer the drugs bringing you comfort, it’s the demons in your head that you’ve befriended.…

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