In my short nineteen years of life I have come to realise one minor, but none the less important, thing; the smallest ideas have been used as inspiration for my largest steps. What I mean by this is the thing that encouraged me to start my blog, ironically enough, was anxiety.
Some of you will know, if you’ve followed me for a while now, that I dropped out of college… twice, due to break downs and the fact that I purely just couldn’t handle it.
So I left.
Back then, I was obsessed with shows like Sex and the City or movies like The Devil Wears Prada and Confessions of a Shopaholic because they surrounded the topics of glamour and class and power behind successful women and I got a rise out of things like that. I always daydreamed about working for a big magazine company like Vogue or Cosmopolitan, things like this were a constant inspiration for me. Unfortunately, you have to go to uni for that apparently and guess who didn’t get the A levels!
So essentially, I shattered my own dreams and now I’m a waitress who writes. Not that there’s anything wrong with this but predominantly, I want to be a writer.
Very fine line between that and a writer with a part time job. I sometimes have to sit back and wonder, how do I jump over that line? Do I have to be making a certain amount of money? I mean, it’s not exactly a secret that I have been paid for a few posts on my website but is it all about money to say that you’re a writer, not just someone who writes? Or is it the amount I write? I try and post once a week but as you guys know, I’m kind of lousy with it but I’m more or less always writing yet, no one would recognise me as a writer. Perhaps it’s the success of my writing, that would consider me an actual writer.
Which brings me back to the point of this post, my smallest ideas encourage my biggest steps. Originally, the blog was for me, still is mostly because I’m trying to go back and use it as more of a diary like I used to, it was something to do in my spare time. Of course, a view here and there was nice and it’s always a great feeling when someone is using your writing as inspiration in their life, but it was never the point of my blog. I had always just wanted to write in a journalistic kind of style ever since my first media lesson. We designed magazine covers and looked at how articles and columns were presented. Something so small inspired what is now, one of the things I’m most proud of and consumes quite a large amount of my time. Behind the scenes, 2016 was a huge year for MissSophiaBlog, I went to my first event, Olympia Beauty and then I was invited to Vuelio Blog Awards ceremony which was absolutely incredible, the vibes were great, the experience was beyond all my expectations and I really hope I get to go again next year. And, of course, I switched to self hosting which… I’m still trying to get the hang of back here but it’ll work out eventually and last but not least, the make over.
My blog has come a long way since I first set up in my ex boyfriends bedroom whilst he ignored me and being the introvert that I am, I was quite used to making something out of nothing.
So an hour and a half later, with one of the first free themes I found, I had finally created MissSophiaBlog.wordpress.com at fifteen years old as a result of boredom, creativity and lack of communication within a relationship.
In a way, I kind of owe him a thank you for being so interested in Call of Duty and other girls.
I suppose this is just the butterfly effect but in short, dropping out of college was the best decision I made because with spare time, money, less stress, persistence and determination, i’m now able to do what I want on my own platform and the benefits of blogging are endless. I’ve met amazing people and attended some beautiful events and I can only look forward to what 2017 has to offer me. So thank you, stressful exams and bad relationships for being the backbone of my inspiration to chase the things I want.